So my 3 year old, spend the summer home with my 14 year old, playing enjoying each other’s company, it made me realize that the full year that my baby was with the nany he did not learn anything. The only thing he got perfect at is using his iPad, and eating junk food, because even though I would leave healthy home cooked meals, ready for my baby, the nany would give him McDonald’s. I also realized this summer my baby talks so much more now, in a full sentence.
I’ve been working for more than a year to this office, which I actually loved being there, the coworkers were nice. I actually felt like that could be one of my dream jobs, that I’ve been wanting, I keep telling my self there is no reason why you can’t be here for 20 years.
The school starts soon, so I’m preparing my oldest for high school, and my baby for preschool, dr appointment, dental, school supply’s, new clothing, everything was going as planned. Me and my husband took the day off looking at options, for preschools in our area, and we did found one, it was not the best, but for the time being it will work.
Days went by and I started having this mother feeling, that I just couldn’t imagine my baby being there alone, taking naps alone, playing with kids that he never met before, having a babysitter/ teacher that will only give orders, I started thinking of how my baby’s day will fold and how alone will he feel. I did not tell anyone about my motherly feelings, I still prepared my baby’s backpack with all the things that he was going to need at the preschool.
The morning of the first day, got up, got dressed for work, got my baby dressed, we all got in the car, first dropped of my oldest first day of high school, I’m so proud of him already, then next stop preschool, we got there so I’m telling my youngest, hey baby here is your school, you’re going to have so much fun, let’s get out of the car and go in. My so started crying I just want to stay with you mommy, I just want to go home and cuddle with you, I don’t want to go there, me and my husband are looking at each other what should we do. My husband had to go to work so he says you handle this baby, you’re better at this.
Ok just me and my baby now in the car, I thought about it for a min, I loved my job, but I love my kids way more, I’m needed here so much, my baby needs his mom now, and a few more years. Not just the baby my oldest too, sick days, field trips, coming home from school early. I’m the first person that they turn too.
I looked at my baby tear eyes do you want to go home, yes mammy, I said ok baby lets go home mammy got you.
I have never been more happier than now, I quit my job, and for some reason I’m not worried, my baby it’s so much happier, that’s what counts more, then the money that I was making at that job, or the carrier, I found a better way to cop with this, I started my own business, as a babysitter, this way I can be there for my baby, educate, and feed him, like I want to, at the same time, make money, and help mothers and other kids.
Finding the right paths in life it’s not easy, I’m so glad I found the right solution, for me and my boy’s.